All you have to do is listen
Aquarius // You are the new age baby girl
Oh darling, you were never born in a world to fit in,
You were never raised in a world to fit in,
You will never be caught in an outfit, a job, a work place to fit in.
There is no box, the mind so open to the future of possibilities that exist well beyond what anyone could even dream of.
No reaching. No finding. Simply just the doing of your incredibly unique soul, here directing other souls to exactly that.
How do we consistently upgrade, change, mould this old structure.
Raised by a community, held by a community, supported by the
immense strength and authenticity of these mountains surrounding us so tightly.
Rebelling against what the box tells you is the way forward with the truth of your very existence, the foundations of your deepest truth.
Allowing your compassionate heart to open to their story, but you know the truth.
And with the mystics ease, you let them know what they are hiding behind.
Feeling before you think.
Perhaps one day words will not be needed.
We were here to break the old world down, you are here to lead us
simply by being into a world we cannot even imagine.
You are here to unite the differences in us all.
To bring us together and create total equality on a whole by simply having an open heart to all.
Welcome to the world darling.
1st House // Identity
Just like the wanderers who move around the world and do not feel lost, that who gets comfortable consistently asking the question ‘who am I’ moves throughout life with this same curious, explository mind. Asking it enough that the impermanence of the ever changing, adapting, evolving nature becomes comfortable with never knowing and not over identifying. I recently caught my grumpy, old, stuck lady voice (my ego) saying ‘I know who I am.’ I knew after she had said it enough, she was beginning to convince herself, so I laughed. And surely enough, lurking in the shadows was a memory that I had forgotten about which brought me to the question, ‘who am I?’
Home is not who you are. Home is not where you are. Home is not those around you, your job title, your appearance, your behaviours. Home is the peace of sitting in a moving changing unpredictable world internally and out saying to yourself this is only one expression to sit next to on the round table of many versions of me.
12th House // The void
“In stillness and silence, the emptiness is loud.
So vast and infinite.
How the temptation is to put something here, to make it homely, yet the intuition to not.
And to realise you already arrived at this place you thought was so far away.
This small seed inside you that only you can water and grow.
Waiting for some imaginary conditions to arise so it can flourish.
This seed you had all along. The essence of you, the only thing in this space of infinite potential.
How the temptation is to put something here, to make it homely, yet the intuition to not.
The heart wrenching pain of fearing this place because it means the journey is over.
The quest was always the illusion of how to find the imaginary conditions for this seed to grow,
when all that was needed was the courage to admit that perfect conditions already exist.”
Options
Walk your road back home.
Walk your road back home.
And you will find what you’ve been waiting for.
You will find the essence of this familiar voice that you distanced for so long.
The words pouring over you leading to the next step.
This journey more difficult than you could ever imagine.
Why did you give up in the first place?
You didn’t have the option to not.
And so you take the next step with a whole heart.
A journey worth fighting for.
And a soul worth letting go of.
The sounds of the river washing away the debris of what we knew.
To walk together in a path of light.
The road home is a fine one.
The road home is a lonely one.
The road home will never help you fully understand,
just how lucky you are to even have the option to try.
Heart Break
Heart break is the emotional manifestation of the recognition that the attached love you’re experiencing is impermanent. It is inevitable and running away from the reality of impermanence will only lead to more pain as you suppress the natural emotional path of which your heart is wanting to experience and process. Not to mistake for just the emotional end point of a relationship that no longer grows and more a consistent invitation to maturity over and over within relating. David Whyte speaks of this with a mother and her child, breaking her heart over and over as her child finds their own. And without heart break we would never know just how much we as humans we have the capacity to open our hearts to another again and again. And finally letting go of trying to control the way you desire another or yourself to express and deepening into a more powerful trust - of yourself and that in which you are in heart break with.
Aries // The Wounded Warrior
Hey man within, laced with toxicity.
You are your number one priority.
The words ‘I need’ confused with the ‘I want.’
This demand for more. Greed and desire.
Cutting the lines of the web of interconnectivity.
To forget we’re standing right here beside you.
Reaching out a hand.
Asking for a hand in return.
You’ve been lashed and pained by those who you opened and gave to.
Selfishness breeds selfishness.
The strength of kindness so hard to hold in a world of miserliness.
Until the warrior is unlocked.
The persistence, this undying strength.
To cut through the bullshit, cut through the noise of that which is breeding separation.
And stand with confidence in the same crowd that took so much from you.
And say ‘your selfishness will not cut me down, it will only make me love more, give more.’
For there is nothing more to sacrifice.
Instead a seed of abundance to share.